Rosh Hashanah is just around the corner, and I usually take this time to assess how my year has gone. I don’t believe in focusing on regret, and how bad I have done, as that just makes me feel down, and is usually not at all constructive. I rather focus on the positive, how much I have grown and learnt and that makes me feel happy. Which in turn wants me to continue on my path of growth for the upcoming year.
Looking back at this year, I definitely wouldn’t want it to happen again. We had a number of failed IUI’s, a failed IVF, and were diagnosed with Low Ovarian Reserve, being told that it is extremely unlikely to ever become pregnant naturally.
But I’m being positive, what have I managed to learn and how have I grown? I think this year I have grown tremendously with regards to being sensitive to others. Through my own personal struggles I have realised that we never know what people are going through, and we definitely don’t know how different people react to different situations. Even if I may be okay in a certain situation, someone else can be extremely hurt and upset. So I think above everything else, this year I have become a much more caring and understanding person.
No I am not happy with my life’s situation and struggle, but I am happy that I have managed to grow from it in a way I don’t think would have been possible without infertility…
Thank you Danny for sharing this refectiong with Yesh Tikva! To read more about Danny’s Journey through infertility you can check out his journal.